Friday, 11 December 2009

I know I should let it go
But hell No I dont want to.
So what if it means pain?
Its just a matter of sooner or later

I've always been stuck in that perpetual pool of denial
Its just pain.
A little more makes not much of a difference.
But it doesnt matter now does it?
Even if I do or do not let go

Either ways its just slipping from my fingers
my opinions and thoughts dont matter
Its already started and it will just keep slipping away no matter how hard i hold on.
It doesnt matter.

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary night
You find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
'Cause who's to know
Which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine

And it's like flying without wings
'Cause you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

-Flying without wings

Friday, 13 November 2009

"If you really want something
let it go.
If its meant to be yours
it will come back to you naturally."
=)
I realised
i realised^.^
i realised ^_^

 
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Friday, 6 November 2009

Shila, Cheng Ting and Yong Jie came my house today...
before that waited for the guys to end lesson so we chatted with mdm tan...
after a while went to check found them playing black jack -.-
told them to come look for us after they recouped their loss
then went back to chatting
after that CT complain hugry so we go canteen buy food then talk talk with ms lim and ms lam... talk until 1330 -.-
at first wanted to play mahjong but not even half a round every1 sian liao dont know why. maybe cause never play money
so we started playing black jack.
then after a while Ferre and guess who came?
Adrian HOW...
ZH called YJ while we were playing mahjong to ask about his whereabouts...
like wth lah
ask him play mahjong say he studying in school -.-
then after he came he said he just told teacher not free-.-
anyway his provisional test is like next month...
kay anyways hope we can all play again someday =D

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

Yay! Went to the science centre today!!
haha i sound like a kid! anyway i realise that i've been pretty bimbo-tic
these days like OMG must stop!!!
anyway there was this cute ang moh boy at the SC(science centre) that got seperated from his auntie rosie then we tried to help him look for her haha lol.
the boy was really damn cute okay anyways had lots and lots of fun!
we went for a workshop - chemistry if over the counter medicine,
lecture demonstration on pressure which is suprisingly very fun!!! and also went for the thunderbolt show!! HAHA sounds like bolt the movie.
the guy from sc - andrew made a teddy bear fly and go boomz! and when we ask for encore he really did it! such a nice guy oh and haha samuel rip his pants i think lol scandalous!

Wednesday, 28 October 2009

Woo!! Its raining!!!
OMG i just Love the rain
everytime it rains when i'm alone [sorta]
sometimes its just such a wonderful feeling!!!
anyway i wish i can someday walk in the rain again.
alone or otherwise
haha
walking alone in the rain sometime just gives a sense of tranquility
while at other times it just helps to process raging emotions
=)
=)
=D
anyway HAPPY happy happy
yays! wish it would rain again =)

Thursday, 22 October 2009

Woo!!! had band after a long time today...
wow we were like really kinda efficient today.
played two new songs entirely.
In a gentle rain and the liberty bells
even increased the speed for the liberty bells...
like whoa!!!
mr lim even gave us a break!! which is like so rare..
but quite happy cause felt that jia xin improved and is putting in effort!!!
woo!!!! =) =D

Wednesday, 21 October 2009

When i cry at night i dont want to bother you.
when i cry in the day i cant seem to find you
Should have remembered not to get in too deep
should have remembered that you were going to be gone
shouldnt have gone in so late
shouldnt have started at all



did we even start ?
was it just my imagination?
oh right we were friends
but you still ran away
not friends not lovers
just acquaintances



Didnt even know when i started falling
falling in love with you.
the next thing i knew
you became my world
tried to get closer and closer
thought i was happy too



but the day came crashing
when i just couldnt find you
when i really needed too
needed too.



so what now
so what if i found out
that i just knew you and you me.
when you just knew my name and nothing else



i thought we had fun
the times we laughed
had fun had lunch
and smiled together
it was just a mirage



the time that day ...
it was etched in my heart
but it skipped yours



it will be easy for you to just forget me.
maybe you already have.
just an acquaintance.
someone whose name you knew before.

Tuesday, 8 September 2009

Woo Hoo back from the chalet!!!
HAHA so HAPPY!!!!=)
It was so freaking awesome and so fun!!!
WHEE!!!
Im supposed to depict everyrhing here today but i think if i explain it here i will spam the whole page so maybe i will just thank everyone who went haha.
Hmmm maybe i should keep a diary and write everything but first i need a nice book... nice pen... and etc but most importantly a safe place to stash it so that i can't be found!!! Muahahaha!
So anyway first day+night was the over 16 party
then 2nd was sort of majority of family members
and third day was sec 3 day!!! woohoo
So.. other than my family members, and especially my mother, father and aunty nifa for doing EVERYTHING...
i would like to thank the following people for coming...[ in no special order...]
Paul Heng,
Nadim,
Xuan Hong,
Jerome,
Yu Quan,
Wei Cheng,
Noel,
Khairi,
Joshua,
Darren Kui aka Fred,
Fiona,
Yan Hong,
Ming Xuan,
Samantha,
Zann,
Yong Yu,
Amanda,
Vanessa,
Joyce,
Felicia,
Jun Han,
Jorim,
Remus,
Sean,
Wilfred,
Klinsmann,
Jun Yi,
Sheryl,
Jun Ming,
Pearl,
er if still got,... so sorry to have forgotten...
and also all your parents for being so nice and understanding=)
THANK YOU!!!

Thursday, 3 September 2009

Woo Hoo!!! Cross country and chalet tomorrow!!!
Haha gonna get older tomorrow already but still cannot watch nc16 films... lol
they should be like america got m13 shows=)
anyway must thank wei cheng for buying plastic bag and walking with me=)
!yay! kinda excited but...
must contain excitement!!!
Hope that all goes well for the next few days...
and the rest of my life.

Friday, 21 August 2009

My bro is so sweet =)
he bought me fillet-o-fish to cheer me up=)
haha but he also bought the double one for himself...
I broke my really cute baby pooh bear and tigger water bottle....=(
Boo Hoo.
I want it back..=(
Sobs.

Sunday, 2 August 2009

Went to cut hair yesterday....
so now i have a super short fringe
and i look super ugly cause alot of pimples just popped out-.-
seriously what the hell lah tuesday phototaking leh
everytime one to phototaking then alot will pop out lor...
i bet next time birthday also will...
anyway cant wait for the chalet in september!!! i think first day i invite sec school friends cause its on cross country day...
second day is on saturday so i think i invite family members and relatives then third day i invite pri sch friends... woohooo!!!
oh and and those who want to come please self invite and tell me you want to come okay?!

Thursday, 30 July 2009

i think i hurt my finger while TRYING to play basketball today...
BUT i'm so not going to tell my parents cause they will so totally scold me... =(
tomorrow piano lesson how?!?!
maybe i later go practise see how...
currently researching on Chopin's prelude in d flat major... a.k.a raindrop
lol

Wednesday, 29 July 2009

"played" basketball today...
well actually it was more of the ball playing me....
played with gary, ronald, yazid they all against sec 2s... sec 3 vs sec 2
Seriously the sec 2s... wow sia... the daniel so tall when we aim for the hoop and never go in before the ball even drop back down, he grab it already... not only him the leonard and kenneth and dont know dont know who also all like that one...
Okay maybe cause i short lah but the rest of my team all sec 3 guys leh i think only daniel taller than them lor but they outnumber us... somemore got dont know how many bball players... and then everyone jump so high - again maybe that's a height issue... dave also very good at getting the ball...maybe cause he's small and fast... then also they all move super fast...
anyway quite fun lah...
but i kena hit by the ball 3 times!!!
one on the mouth, one on the chest and one on the cheek... lol
other than that chasing for the ball and trying to intercept when they dribbling is quite fun lah...
i think that's the only thing i know how to do... intercepting if the person is not too fast for me. cause i cannot shoot also cannot block....
oh yeah and another thing... i was the only "girl" playing so one would presume i got the 'hey you cant touch me' advantage but apparently the sec 2s dont care lah... somemore dare to say i dont like to play with girls...
like wth lah we playing for fun leh...
haha anyway had dental appointment with school nurse today... she damn nice leh... and managed to skip part of Fong's lessom =D

Sunday, 26 July 2009

okay my father and my brother when to check it out and my dad says....
its not a funeral its a dua di ji!
as in 大日子!
as in big big day lol...
okay not funny...
anyway doing physics project with cai fang now...
one word... WOW.
now, just opposite my house there's this big spectacular event with dragon dance, hell gods and loud banging....
my mother reckon that its a funeral... but seriously wow man
its like pretty big and everything...
okay im so going back to watching it through the window!!! ciao
Had dinner at 日本村 yesterday cause father had some special dinner or something and bro just finished swimming so wanted to try for the first time..
Not bad lah... Anyway after that went shopping at tampines mall and century square... wanted to go tampines 1 but had no time...
And... I bought a new nike school bag!! Woo! finally =)
wanted to buy this whole black "cat suit" but kinda ex considering i dont go out often... so buy already also useless...
somemore small size one some areas to tight for me then medium size one to loose in the waist... -.-
this is what happens to people that are too improportionate in body size...lol
this week during lit sam was like hyperventilating then kena sent to hospital by ambulance..
waa look like super serious sia everyone came mrs neo, mr yeap +like all the school attendants... but kinda surprised mr b didnt come...
anyway after that she came back to collect her bag then she say is lung infection....
but still DONT FRET...
wont die want if you take care=)
i had it when i was young too...
and look im still ALIVE!!!
lol

Saturday, 11 July 2009

Today had flag day...
Just realised that Jun Yi treat everyone to Swensen's!!! OMG regret never go...

Sunday, 5 July 2009

Had to wake up at 630 to meet Jin Hui at Mac to do project... Ended Up that faggot overslept... Didnt want to sit at mac like an idiot waiting for 45 mins so went to shop and save... saw this PEZ sweet dispenser with a hello kitty head and thought of Jorim so bought it for her... then nothing to do so sms Jun Ming... end up he still sleeping... sorry for waking u up at 730 JM then after that didnt want to really mingle with the aunties at shop and save so went to mac to eat apple pie and wait for JH... Then JH arrived like a babysitter with his cousin and bro in toll... Then did project until 9. realised that Jh's brother Jin Yuan felt that LTC was a waste of time... Seriously ouch>.- after that i went to ask JY then he admit... that was double ouch man... but never mind at least the other campers benefited")...
Haha...Man stupid tao huey made me wake up so early-.-...
Damn Him...
Okay off to do chinese proj...")

Friday, 3 July 2009

Haha Jorim Kok act cute...

Sheryl TYF

The blur look + a camera with no "anti-shake"=this pic.


Sheryl looking very happy with her after braces teeth in a wide smile...


Remus Lao Ba, Sheryl wifey and ME!!!










"Cam-whored" with Sheryl today...
But first time okay so if its ugly.... then that just too bad... its MY face...
Haha lol
Initially didnt know how to upload the pics haha so noob...





Woo Hoo i love Love Celeb... Haha lol...
Haha Nowadays so not free although no band but everyday got something on... it just goes like school
chinese project ... school ...chinese project...tuition...piano...tuition...
then still got change agent project...
haha heng ss got paul so THANK YOU PAUL MJ
Also wanted to thank everyone who helped me with my chinese proj... as calefare, camera man/woman and etc...
A BIG THANK YOU
and also thanks to my group members ") "P

Sunday, 14 June 2009

YAY!
Okay today is a special day for...
My Grandmother[Ah Ma]
& Reynold...
So Happy Birthday to you guys!!!!
Though i highly doubt that you'll ever see this but nevertheless =)

Saturday, 13 June 2009

Ahem!
I would like to thank everyone who has wished me a Happy Birthday on the very SPECIAL day of 13 Of June. Millions of BIG THANK YOUs to you guys who are namely...
Krisha,
Dexter,
Mdm Rohana,
Cally,
Moses,
Tania,
Elena,
Yan Hong,
Tiong Ming,
Eugene,
Yong Jie,
Ding Loon,
Xin Hui,
Jean Jie Jie
&
Pearl
!!!!
So thanks again LOVE you guys!.!.!


Wednesday, 13 May 2009

I Quit! I Quit! I Quit!

I quit
My old ways
I quit ignorin’ all the things you say
Quit gettin’ high
Stayin’ out all night
I quit to keep you from lettin’ me go
You say it’s over, but I’m sayin’ no!

I quit! I quit! I quit!
But I ain’t givin’ you up
You got that somethin’ that I can’t get enough of
I’d give you anything
But I ain’t givin’ you up
Either way, you’re the fix
That’s why I quit! I quit! I quit!

Give me
Another shot
Forgive me baby for the things I forgot
I’ll never be
In your magazines
They got two reasons for leavin’ me flat
But I got a big one for takin’ me back

I quit! I quit! I quit!
But I ain’t givin’ you up
You got that somethin’ that I can’t get enough of
I’ll give you anything
But I ain’t givin’ you up
Took a hit, you’re the fix
That’s why I quit! I quit! I quit!

If you knew I could change
Would it change anything?
You saw right through
You knew and now you’re gone
Now you’re gone.........

I quit! I quit! I quit!
But I ain’t givin’ you up
You got that somethin’ that I can’t get enough of
I’ll give you anything
But I ain’t givin’ you up
Either way, you’re the fix
That’s why I quit! I quit! I quit!

That’s it! That’s it! I quit!
But I ain’t givin’ you up
You got that somethin’ that I can’t get enough ofI’d give you anything
But I ain’t givin’ you up
Took a hit, you’re the fix
That’s why I quit! I quit! I quit!

(I quit!)
I quit! I quit! I quit!
(That’s it! I quit!)
That’s it! That’s it! I quit!
(I quit!)
I quit! I quit! I quit!

Tuesday, 12 May 2009

Woohoo today only got chinese paper 2.
Happy Birthday to Yong Jie... but too bad he got a fever so suay...
kay need go study le!!!

Monday, 4 May 2009

Man, this is retribution... For throwing the mahjong tile at zong han... which he got hit by...

Early in the morning today.... before i went to school... i was digging for biscuits to store under my desk... Then my brown rice bin on the shelf... decided to fall on my forehead... so now i have a blue-black plus a red line on my forehead... -.-

f.y.i. luckily it was the brown rice bin which is around 1 kg that drop on my head... not the white rice bin which is like 5+kg... -.-

Ouch...

Saturday, 28 March 2009

Love Story

We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.


See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello;

Little did I know
That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me; they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh.

I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think-"

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet. you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh, oh.

We were both young when I first saw you...

Monday, 9 March 2009

Oh God!
Mahjong Mahjong Mahjong!!!!
Hope I won't get addicted...=)
Never Mind I'm sure i won't =)

Monday, 2 March 2009

Man I Just Need Someone To Send Me Home When It's Late And Dark...
Omg I'm so pathetic... Everyone is like in love, loving someone or has loved before, and i'm in none of those categories...-.-

Sunday, 1 March 2009

I just realised that being afraid of the dark is called ACHLUOPHOBIC. So I'm achluophobic!!!
LOL
Anyway i saw Klinsmann's brother and his gf just now at interchange. At first i saw someone that look like Klinsmann so I thought is the Brother then after that on closer look like dont look like so i never say anything then after Cheryl pointed it out and i was like keep "really meh?"
Then after that I ban xin ban yi so i was like see where they drop off then after that they drop off at 491 basketball court the bus stop there then i was like OMT!!!-OMG!!!
lmao okay that was stupid...

Wednesday, 25 February 2009

Just met Jeffrey and Marcus... Jeffrey got tall, Marcus got taller and i bet Reynold is ubber ubber tall!!!
Anyway speaking of Reynold he has EX-es!!!! And heard he's become a flirt and he has/ had girlfriends!!!!\
Aargh what is the world becoming into?!?!?!
Anyway Jeffrey said he is 190+ OMT OMT
Damn seems that i really have gone crazy...
REYNOLD!!!!!

Saturday, 14 February 2009

Oh and Happy Valentines' Day to all!!!!!

Today is the day I give up on you.

Thursday, 12 February 2009

Man I', such a P**king loner. I light have alot of different friends but never a really consistent 1. There's always no one that I can tell everything to... No one's shoulder that I can really comfortably cry on. Damn Puck sia. Has there really ever been anyone that has seen me really be emo, angst or depressed?
Sometimes its not because Im always a happy person, but just that no one ever sees the real me or how real I am.
Its true that I rarely get upset but what if i really am.
When in front of anybody I "lose control", do I really lose control or is it just the outside of me trying to get all high while I'm just crying inside.
After both my grandfathers' death I've ever thought of sitting in a corner by running half way through sectionals. At night i cry and cry without anybody nowing although my brother migh tjust be beside me.
I want to cry all day all night, in every place, every corner I know.
But I always end up automatically telling myself.
Xi En you'll always be that cheerful seed, and wont ever cry in school because you miss someone and ironically thats all true.
Im just a sorry and pathetic excuse for life, and a stupid ass who contradicts one self.

Sunday, 8 February 2009

PSP!!!!!

Wahahaha
I've got a PSP!!!!
My Father won it at a company dinner luck draw yesterday...
Muahahaha

Saturday, 7 February 2009

Mothers are always right in a sense
Although you will never see this message,
Sorry for pissing you off.
It was the only way for me to think straight,
Just treat that I never existed.
~
Is it ironic or humourous to have two grandfathers that pass away just six months after the other.
Okay I'm going to quite randomnly link almost
every Tom, Dick and Harry I know.
So... first up Wei Quan...

Friday, 23 January 2009

Okay testing testing...

Thursday, 22 January 2009

Going to have to burn midnight oil again tonight... tonight still got amaths so even worse... today for class deco the more i help the worse it gets... but anyway by the time i have to go for band then just nice jun yi + vanessas they all come back le...
then now i uploading song from phone + mp4 to ipod le cause i pod better to use...
anyway need to chiong homework so i better go le... BB


Wednesday, 21 January 2009

Aargh!!! There shouldn't be sadness in this world!!! there should only be happiness =) Anyway happiness will prevail... wahaha... lol... no link.
anyways today had to rush home for lessons so couldnt help decorate classroom... Aahhh feel so bad never help people...tomorrow must try to help them... am burning midnight oil now cause i took a nap between lesson and tuition... anyway got alot of homework to do..
ciao!

Tuesday, 20 January 2009

Damn Freakin' Idiot sia. Also not even 1 year difference then death comes again. Is death trying to play a joke on my family..!@##$$$%%^^&*@#^&&^$...
Very not happy lor. Anyway hope everything goes well... must still have hope!!! life must go on!!! okay who i am kidding... i must be crazy..@-@... anyways i got alot of E and A maths homework... Happy Birthday to Paul Heng!!!
Just realised ms chin calls him bao luo after paul mj ... lol

Monday, 19 January 2009

Today in school my sneezing craze started again and i used up almost the entire box of tissue paper. Then, I went kukku and started laughing at everything sreeram and jin hui said and laughing at everything jolyon and hao yi was doing. It was totally crazy, and i was laughing like a xiao za boh.
So because of the sneezing, lessons were horrible and i slept during assembly only to be awakened my mareenah who was told to do so by ms cheng
after that lunch-ed then had sects then after that emo-ed by telling yu quan and paul all my most inner thoughts.[my theory of emo for me is spilling my guts about myself to somebody nice] All except for 1... i haven't told them who i like yet... but never mind... however today when i didnt talk much to him/ in front of him, it felt totally weird...
although this blog is never going to be read by someone else, I'm still not going to reveal who he is... Dots